Friday, April 29, 2005

So, I just took a test GA did, regarding some uses of our brains or stuff. After the results, there were some advices given on who to befriend, who to date, who not to sleep with and stuff.

In a joking manner, she referred to the dating portion. Mm...yeah, according to the test and its results, we "can" date, whatever that means.

Talked to bub about the attraction, too. He warned me not to say ANYTHING to her, 'cause she's a minor.

Heh.

I guess he's right. It gives me time to think and ponder about my own feelings, too. I've learnt enough lessons on relationships to make me wary.

Just wondering if the joke isn't a hint, too. I don't want to read into anything too much. Just have to wonder.

Oh well.



Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Well, G's back from her London trip. I'm glad to know she had a lot of fun. She deserved it, knowing all the shit she's been through.

I was thinking of e-mailing her, but then, I saw her post on LJ, part of it directed to me.

I was filled with a strange sense of...exhiliration, that she mentioned ME in the post, by name. I like her, as a friend, as a sister. As...more than that?

I don't know. Heh. Should I discuss this with her?



Monday, April 04, 2005

I guess I'm alone, again. I mean, mm...well, okay, maybe not alone, but lonely. There's a difference in that.

Anyways, seems that my friendship with LS has broken down till it reached the acquaintanceship stage again. Or, at the very least, until we hang out together only because of mutual interest.

I guess why the friendship started breaking down in the first place is a combination of various reasons.

1) Work attitude--frequently clashes. The old adage of: 'if you want to keep a friend, don't work with him' saying is definitely right. Though, in this case, I'm thinking that there wasn't a real friendship to begin with, not that I'm complaining.

2) Regrets--never follow the choices of a friend if those choices aren't what you believe in. Heh. Even though I tolerated BP for the whole semester and scrapped through with just-passes, that was a hell-ride I never want to go through again. I'm not prepared to waste my time following the footsteps of any friend, if the footsteps aren't mine to begin with.

I guess I was feeling resentful towards being influenced by someone whom I thought was a friend. And that's really the main reason why things started going downhill.

Mm...