Monday, January 03, 2005

I keep thinking it's not really all-too-possible to love a few people romantically. I mean...well...I love K., who's a guy. And I love G., who's a girl. Romantic love, yes. Also, platonic love.

Dang. I'm confusing myself. I blame that on the burnout I'm suffering from, and the slight fever/cough/whatever that's afflicting me.

But, I know that if Wolf ever takes form in this world, I'll love him with death. That's not sadistic, nor is it bad. People who know me knows that I love death over life; and that I believe that death is definitely not the end.

Wolf knows it, too. He knows who I am, because he's been with me for a long time. He knows I love him, and I think that he does love me back. Before a romantic relationship can occur for anyone, my take is that there must first be friendship/platonic love, before that romance can occur. Wolf and I have become so familiar with each other that he's extremely patient with most of my foibles, and for my part, I tone down a lot on my cynical side and my violence and anger, giving respect to Wolf.

I'll get myself healed from this burnout, and then see if we can communicate more, understanding each other more...