Thursday, May 12, 2005

Sometimes, I get so sick of IE I want to just disable the thing completely, but then again, it's probably best to have a few browsers handy. Heh.

I feel as if I'm cheating on D. by liking G. It doesn't matter if G.'s a girl and D.'s a guy, and there's no gender-basis for comparison. The very fact that I'm supposed to love D. and have already promised commitments to him (and him to me) means that loyalty is a required, and no more an obligation or so.

But G...I've liked her since late last year, around October, I think. Sure, no basis for comparison, too, since D.'s been with me since like, what? years ago?

I'm so confused. Of course, the ideal would be to be with the both of them, but to me, it's an explicit form of disloyalty and unfairness I place upon them, that *I* am with both (if G. even accepts me in the first place) and ask that they themselves stay loyal. How can I ask that of them if I don't do the same?

No, I won't be miserable if I pick one over another. I love both of them, and I don't give my love nor trust lightly, as they know.

Perhaps I should speak with D. on this, tell him the truth that he should deserve to know. I won't hide it from him.