Friday, June 10, 2005

Akiyama Ren, why the hell did you come into my dreamscape and interacted with me? Why the hell did you even evoke feelings in me when you said, "You look even more beautiful/prettier than before"?

I know it wasn't merely a dream. You left. Why did you come back?

I'm with Dick now. I've gone through so much to be there for him, to be an individual he can love; he has done the same. Between you and him, there's no hesitation who I'll bond with. So why in Valar's names do I feel an attraction for you? Am I really me-liking-you or me-as-someone-else-liking-you?!

*growls*

I look at Dick's pictures and I want to hug him and share his pain. I look at Ren and...and I go all tingly...

What the fuck..?