Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Well...was talking to S. and B. this afternoon, and S. suddenly IMed me after we stopped talking for 2 hours, asking me if I was okay. It surprised me, especially since no, I wasn't okay: I felt very cold inside. And apparently, she sensed it, and described it as a "frozen void."

Told B. about that. He suggested I open up and warm up to someone. *chuckles drily* And who should I warm up to? Yeah, I guess I'm quite bitter over that, even though I've accepted that fact. *shrugs* I don't like to bother, and I usually try not to. I'm too frozen up inside, and the few times I've tried warming up to people, I usually get disappointed. Now I'm tired, and even though I'm tempted to warm up to a certain someone, I'm cautious and wary, like an animal who has been abused too many times.

*sighs* I'll think about it until end of August, and then see how things go. Should I cross my fingers? *laughs bitterly*