If I'd known what it was like to be a human, I never would've chosen this path.

I feel like a big cat in too small a cage, pacing and pacing, glaring out from behind the bars, my feralness and strength and tension and energy placed bunched tightly into my whole body, muscles tight. And I'm waiting...waiting for the right moment, when those who made the cage make the tiniest mistake. And then I'll attack.

Can't take much more of this anymore. I'm roaring and tearing at my bars, gnawing and ripping the metal.

I have never fitted into this world, whether it's the corporate one, or the physical one. I know people have offered help, but there are some things another person can never help with, can never alleviate.

I keep saying I need some away from everyone. But this is the first time I've ever truly felt a compelling need to hide. From EVERYONE. Online. Offline. In other worlds.

I just need to feel alone for a bit. I feel like I'm a battery that has been drained too quickly because too many wires are constantly drawing my strength away. I feel like just taking a sleeping bag, going to Punggol Park, and just sleep amongst the trees for a week or so. Sapping my strength, sucking my spirit away.

My spirit is broken; I'm a predator fallen. I feel like I don't even have anything to give to any friend or family now. Just nothing left. Not even a frozen void or anything. I think I may need to go on a hiatus even from blogging. Impromptu one. I need a break from life itself. LOL.

Snowman just asked me about Az and I. :P Everyone's asking. *chuckles* Yeah, surprised people, and surprised both of us too.

I'm too exhausted to care much. Heh.