Saturday, November 05, 2005

I remember why I don't like to be happy.

Every time I experience happiness--whether ecstatic or otherwise--within a short time, I'll feel depressed. As in, honest-to-God depressed. It's as if my store of happiness is in extremely limited supply, and to use up any percentage of that store means having to compensate for it by feeling depressed afterwards.

And while I truly am happy for her, after less than an hour or so, I feel depressed. *sighs*

Why? Why can't I feel happy for an extended period of time? Fuck it. Now all I feel like doing is curling up and crying.

Gah. You're fucked up, Case.