Friday, January 19, 2007

This is going to be a summary of the past two nights.

18 January, 2007; Thursday
Went to Pulau Ubin with Az and Ru. It didn't rain much, which I was greatly for. And I thought I did much better navigating the tracks and trails than I did the first time.

Surprisingly, my body or legs didn't ache the next day at all. Interesting.

After that, spent time alone with Az, and that was the most interesting part.

Perhaps because of the exhaustion after cycling intensely at Ubin, but that evening became free reign for basal and animalistic instincts and actions. It was as if all inhibitions from previous episodes had ceased to exist for that time. We were like two animals which had decided to mate, for life. There was a raw feeling of need, yes, but also of want, and a desire to mark a claim on the other.

I'm filled with the imagery of two wolves, or two jaguars, or even a wolf and a jaguar, nuzzling, head-pushing, pawing a little, bodies intertwined, licking the other's fur, leaving our own scents on the other to mark him/her for our own, so that no others of our own kind would be daring enough to intrude between the both of us.

It was powerful; it was raw; it was wild; and it was a lot more passionate than any other times we'd done it even though the sexual acts were a lot less. It brought the whole relationship to another level of trust and...and...I don't know.


19 January, 2007; Friday
Fatalistic feeling again.

'nuff said.